Once upon a time there was a young girl who met a young boy..
They were in school then, dreaming of their lives , hearts filled with hope of the future.
The girl liked the boy very much.. the way he kissed her, his tall lean body, big intense blue eyes. … She thought she could spend forever swimming in his intensity. .. the way he would say her name over and over when they made love.. He was poetry to her.. his lips, his voice, the way he touched her. She wanted him so bad…
He didnt seem to feel the same.. she wasn’t the poetry he sang to himself.. and so they parted ways… and never thought she’d see him again.
Time passed.. 20 years…
A grown woman gazed into a mans eyes and saw something familiar.. not believing it could be the boy from 20 years earlier she didnt ask… and made small talk about children..
Every day she would see him with those eyes.. and she knew. .it must be him..so..she decides that the next time she runs into him she must say something.. “do you remember me?. I loved you once..remember? How has your life been? Have all your dreams come true?”
….but … he’s disappeared. .. nowhere to be found.
And so she waits.
Went to the pumpkin patch yesterday… had a lot of fun.. BUT.. didn’t bring home any pumpkins..!! What?? !! These are my kids. This pumpkin patch is a traditon for us. we always go there because there are so many fun things for the kids to do.
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Waking up in my crib and feeling happy… I just layed there for awhile and then my mom walked into the room.. smiling and saying she didn’t know I was awake. I don’t think I could talk yet, but I knew what she was saying.
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hmmm… I never know what to say in these things… I mean.. do I go for mundane facts?.. emotional stuff???
1. I should have been a dancer. Apparently I was a temple dancer in ancient Babylonia! lol!! (according to a psychic I talked to once)
2. I love to bake and make chocolate candies.. I go crazy every holiday season. What’s ironic about this is I can’t eat wheat gluten.. so… I don’t get to eat any of the baked goods. I think this year I’ll do truffles and fudge.. not sure yet. :-)
3. I feel lonely almost all the time.
4. I can listen to music every waking minute.. I never get tired of it.. and I like almost any kind of music.. it drives everyone in my household crazy because I’m just a “noisey” person.
5. I have horrible social anxiety. I feel out of place any time I’m in public. I’m constantly worried about how I’m coming across to others.. I really hate being misunderstood.
I lost my way, I forgot to call on your name. The raw heart beat against the world, and the tears were for my lost victory. But you are here. You have always been here. The world is all forgetting, and the heart is a rage of directions, but your name unifies the heart, and the world is lifted into its place. Blessed is the one who waits in the traveller’s heart for his turning.
Sometimes I can go days and not want to do anything.. I mean.. I can get to the gym… but that’s pretty much it for the day.. and then there are days when I want to try and do EVERYTHING!!… that’s like today.. I’ve cooked two different chicken dinners (because I probably won’t want to cook for the next few!) .. made some biscuits from scratch, did 3 loads of laundry… changed my bedding.. and completely scoured my upstairs bathroom. (not my favorite thing to do!) Oh.. I also made some more homemade dishwashing liquid and laundry soap.. and went to the gym for a couple hours this morning. so.. busy day.. I need to try and get on here more often and keep up on who I’m following, plus I’ve been wanting to keep a journal going on here. There are days that I absolutely positively DON’T feel like sharing, though.. to anyone.. just clam up.. I hate it when I’m like that because I think people think I’m shutting them out„ but I’m not doing it on purpose.. I just emotionally shut down in general. I like to think I’m entering into what I call “conservation mode.” :-) I’ve been in conservation mode a lot lately!
Ok, apple cider vinegar.. we’ve all heard about the health benefits.. but, a website/recipe caught my eye the other night while Stumbling and it was for an apple cider vinegar drink that consists of 12 oz water, 2 tbls organic apple cider vin, squeeze of lemon juice and a bit of honey to sweeten… Can I say that this is perhaps the most disgusting concoction I have EVER tasted!!!.. oh so bad.. bad bad.. It literally made my stomach turn.. and I kept thinking.. is this really the healthy thing I’ve been reading about??? I tried it again the next day… probably worse the second time because I knew it was coming… so gross.. I decided that this mix wasnt going to work and have been taking a Tbls in a little bit of water.. gulping it down and then drinking a bunch of water right after. I’ve really been into trying to improve my health lately. and naturally… I had a bout of panic attacks a month or so ago that lasted for over 2 weeks… out of the blue! they stopped as suddenly. I don’t know what happened, but… it’s really weird!! My whole body felt weird during that period of time. I was shakey.. my heart would be racing almost entire days, I was and am still convinced that something else is going on. My Dr. took a complete metabolic scan and thyroid check… everything seemed normal… so ??? Anyway… so, I’m trying to find ways to improve my overall health. I just started taking a probiotic, and am doing this apple cider thing. This stuff is supposed to be good for a whole slew of ailments.. skin conditions, tummy problmes, aids in weight loss. I figure it really can’t hurt me , right???